Become Aware With Me
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon...
My fire burns brightly these days.
Part of honoring that; respecting that; ensuring that it doesn't fade back to a dull, whispered glow is tending it. I have to sit close enough to it...sometimes even within it...to ensure it does not die out.
It is painful. It hurts not only to deal with those things that I've previously had the luxury to ignore but to be with the awareness of when I don't.
You see, when I become aware of something, I cannot become unaware of it. I can choose to not deal with it but I am then conscious of my choice....that I chose to ignore it.
I am making a choice to sit with this fire because I cannot imagine any other way to live. To walk away, to let this fire fizzle out, would be to choose death.
Dramatic as it may seem, do you not feel that painful, gripping slumber that arises when you step away from your passions, your life? Like a game of "hot" and "cold", each time a single step is taken away from that which calls to your being, the spirit & the body grow a little colder.
I want to take the steps in my life and constantly hear "hot, hot, hot"! (If you don't know the game, I don't mean hollers from construction workers as I pass by. Though to be honest, I wouldn't be pissed to receive those.) If I cannot hear the calls, I want to stop - to rest - to just listen until I find my direction again.
It is this rest that I find myself right now. I am resting so close to the fire that the smoke burns in my nostrils. The flames crackle out....
You don't really want a "business". You just want to connect with other people. Why are you wasting your time with all of this stuff?
You suck at being vulnerable. You always have to seem strong. You aren't going to get anywhere without the support of others yet when it comes down to the core you refuse to do it unless you can do it on your own.
Like anything else, I could ignore it. I could walk away. But I must let the tears fall and breathe through the gnawing in my gut and LIVE. Because that is who I am. Truly, I cannot live any other way. Once the fires burn away the crap that keeps me from knowing myself, I will find the answers to those questions above. I will move forward, stronger, to the next fire.
More and more, I hear the crackling of your fires as well. Some are roaring, some barely provide enough heat to warm a fly. And yet if I am going to be able to sit with mine you have to show me how you can sit with yours.
THIS, beautiful souls, THIS is where I am. This is where LifeUnity is going. I am aware of this life, the heat, the cold, the pains, and the elations. I'm learning to sit with my own fire and dance with the tribal beats and clapping hands.
At the very least, I want to lead you into awareness of this, to help you live. The newsletter, the website, it is all just another clap, a drum beat so you can hear the rhythm, feel the rhythm, become aware and Dance.
Do you hear it?