Choose Your Lane
I have a fairly routine pattern of driving on the highway.
I usually start off in the far right lane, going around 5 mph over the posted speed limit. If there is any traffic around me, I am usually passed - sometimes at fairly high speeds.
I get anxious.
I want to go faster.
After all, everyone else is.
I question my choice to stay in my lane (particularly if there is someone ahead of me going even slower than 5 mph over the speed limit).
I see (or create) the reasons to go faster. They overcome my reasons for driving in the far right lane.
I switch lanes.
I go faster.
I still get tailgated or passed by those wanting to go even faster.
I start to feel anxious again.
I question why I'm in this lane.
I work myself up and get overly-upset (usually at the other drivers).
I decide I've had enough of their insanity.
I switch lanes back to the right lane and resume my speed at 5 mph over the posted speed limit.
The cycle continues.
I find my own speed and notice the speed at which others are going. I understand why they do. Part of me wants to experience their speed. I switch and get caught up. I blame others until I remember I'm the one who made the choice in the first place. I return to where I started.
I find myself. I see someone else and like their story. I try it on, blame them if it doesn't work, remember I am responsible for my own life, and then return to where I started.
I remember, forget, and remember.
I am aware of this in my life.
I invite you to notice which lane you've chosen.
Without judgment....can you answer why?